Sunday, November 21, 2010

How big are you???

I was told this week by my update emails I get for that you are the size of a teddy bear beanie baby. That's crazy!!!
         It doesn't look like you are beanie baby sized.

I can't wait to hear your heart beat again. That appointment is the week before we find out who you are going to be. Thanksgiving is coming up and man I have a lot to be thankful for. It's hard to believe that I would be thankful for as many things that I am this year. So much has changed for both me and your dad in 2010. We are  trying our best to adapt to the changes and I think we are doing it rather gracefully. And we are definitely getting used to having constant changes, as we should be since next year we will be having the biggest change in our lives.

That's it for now.

I love you :)

Saturday, November 13, 2010


Hey Peapod,
We got your first home all lined up. I'm super excited. You have your own room and its gonna look awesome when we decorate it.
Grandma Shelly is looking for your bed. Woohoo.
Its gonna be great. I can't wait for you to see it.
We will be there for a few months before you will be in the world. So we should have it nice and set up for you.
Sooooo looking forward to it.

Love you

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Week 16 update

Hello baby,

This week is your 16th week. It seems to be going much smoother these days now, thank the lord :) I went to the doctors today for our monthly check up. You are growing so much! I have now gained 7 pounds and within a week from seeing the doctor, she even mentioned the pop in my belly. It's no secret now, I don't look chubby, I look pregnant. And you are moving around like crazy kiddo. Thankfully it's during the day that I actually feel you moving around and not at night... lets keep it that way ;) Your heart rate was 154 beats per minute, that's what I like to hear! And you were found right away once again. I love that you are not hiding anymore. We get to finally find out if you are a Lucy or Liam on December 13th... so at 3:00- like 3:30 or so, please please please show off your special parts. I wouldn't ever ask you to do that, but we both really want to know exactly who you are so we can make your arrival the best possible.

Over the weekend your Grandma Shelly came over and she helped me pick out different styles of cribs for you. We have to find a time for us to get together and actually look at them in person. It will be a good time. And on Saturday, I dropped off some yarn for a baby blanket that I originally wanted to do, but I just don't have the time. So your Grandma Laurie is going to make you a baby blanket... but hey, at least I got to pick out the colors.

The other day I wanted to jump on here and write down a few things that I want you to be able to look back at, at any time, to help you as you grow. It may be mushy, it may be silly, but it's the stuff you gotta learn and I would rather be telling you these things instead of you learning the hard way.

1) Don't be afraid of having your own opinions and beliefs. Some people may not agree with you and would want to debate their own towards you, but stick to your guns. Don't change who you are to please another person.
2) There are always going to be bullies out there. In today's news there are children who have to deal with it every day and have turned to drastic measures to end the bullying. Please remember you can always talk to people about it. We are here for you and want you to be around for a long, long time.
3) We all have our insecurities, nobody and I mean nobody is perfect. There will always be people you will be jealous of but there will also be people who are jealous of you.
4) Your dad told you this earlier, but high school is not the world. Yes, try to have a good time and meet new people who you can be your friends, but people always come and go in life. There is nothing you can do to control it. If you are having a hard time with a "friend" let them go.. sometimes its not just worth the heartache to deal with the drama.
5) One day you are going to fall in love. Your first love is always the hardest to get over. It feels like the end of the world. Your dad and I both know what it is like to go through a tough and painful breakup. Don't give up on your dreams because your heart is broken. Just take a break from life, pull yourself together and know we will always be there to help you get through the tough times.
6) If you are gay, it's ok. Don't pretend to be somebody you aren't. We love you no matter what. We want you to be happy like we are and if that means you like people of the same sex as you, don't worry to express it.
7) Don't be afraid to come with us with any problems or questions you may have. At one time, both me and your dad have had the same questions and problems. Even if it is embarrassing or hard to talk about... trust me, we will understand.
8) Try your hardest at school and focus on what you are passionate about. Do everything you can to make those passions become your life. We will be behind you and try our best to provide whatever it is you need to make your dreams come true.
9) Sometimes we lose people who are close to us. I can promise you it will be one of the hardest things you will have to deal with. And it doesn't get easier with each loss. However, time really does heal a broken heart, though it may not help the missing of the person, but things will go on. And once again, we will be by your side.
10) Life can be extremely unfair to you (in your eyes), don't give up. The harder you work, the better chances you have of getting out of that slump. It may take some time, so don't lose patience. Just try to look at the glass as half full, be grateful for the experience and learn and grow from everything that happens. You will get there, even if the road is a little longer for you than it is anybody else.

And don't forget we love you, your whole family loves you. You are going to be welcomed into this world with a line up of people who are going to smother you with love. So if you feel you need to turn to somebody else with problems or concerns, there are going to be plenty of people who are more than happy to lend a helping hand, a shoulder to cry on, or an ear to lend.

This is beginning to be a really long post, and I could go on forever, but I am going to stop for tonight. I look forward to seeing your beautiful face soon.

Love you tons,

Friday, November 5, 2010

A little more insight in what you are getting into :)

Hey you!

So, we found a place for us to move into when you arrive. Actually, your dad will be moving in sooner than you and me. You will pretty much be half way between all of your grandparents, so it'll be nice for them to see you pretty much whenever they want. I just got off the phone with your Aunt Jenny. We had so much to talk about with you and your cousin. Your cousin is going to be born 4 months before you. In fact, you will have two cousins born within months of you. All together that is 7 cousins that can't wait to be your friend :) You shouldn't feel alone or bored because they are all over the area. You are going to have 4 girl cousins, 2 boy cousins and one to be announced. I can't wait to find out what you are. I was for sure you were a boy right away but as of the last 3 or so weeks i keep thinking you are a girl. You are giving me mixed signals haha. I dream every single night about you, and the moment I lay my eyes on you... and you are a little girl. Sorry if you are a boy and I am talking about all of my dreams of a girl to you. Either way, I will not care what so ever what you are, as long as you are happy and healthy we already know you are going to be perfect.

Alright, this was just a brief chit chat. My next doctors appointment is on Tuesday, I will be 16 weeks and 1 day with you and I can't wait to hear your little heartbeat. I am sure I will have a lot more to say to you then.

Love you much!!!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Dad's Turn

Hey there Peapod(thats my name for you until we get to know if you got an innie or an outie)

So much to tell you about, I'll probably forget most of it and ramble on about something else, you will come to find out I do that alot, it is a Kenworthy trait that my dad had and your great grandmother were/are famous for, you will probably get it too and it will drive your mom crazy like I do. 
I've been waiting for you my whole life, I've been thinking about you ever since I first thought about sex. I can't wait to get to see you for the first time in person. If you would have seen the grin that came across my face when I first saw you come up on the ultrasound monitor, it could have lit up Las Vegas for a week. 
It was even more amazing because I felt like I lost my heart when we thought you weren't gonna make it. Thats how much I've been looking forward to you. 
It doesn't matter to me if you end up a boy or girl just as long as you are a healthy little bastard(  I use that term correctly and lovingly) I really hope that you get all the best traits of your mom and me,a strong mind and a love of animals and hopefully skip over our bad ones like our terrible digestion.
I've got so much to teach you. I hope you dig even half of the things I know a lot about. I think you should know all the words to  Jimmy Cliff's "You Can Get It If You Really Want" and Paul Westerberg's "Mr. Rabbit" before you know "The Wheels on The Bus" I doubt your mom and grandmother's agree but maybe we can bond over that. 
And I can't wait to teach you what zombies say: (pssst here's a hint: BRRRRAAAAAAAAAIIIIINNNNNSSSS)
You will get to see all the coolest kids movies, I've already got a running tab in my head of what you might love even though I've yet to meet you.

Speaking of things to teach you, straight off the bat here is one you need to know right away: It is known as the "Golden Rule": Treat others the way you want to be treated. If you want people to be mean to you then be mean to them, if you want nice things done for you and people to be nice then you need to do the same. Its a big one.
My number one job for you is to keep you on the right path, now there are MANY MANY different paths in life and you can pick any one of those but there is totally ONE wrong path and I will do whatever I can to keep you off that path. I've seen many people take that road and it's not good. 
I hope I can teach you some of the lessons that I had to learn the hard way so you won't, like high school isn't the end all, be all. Life goes on and most of the people in high school you won't ever see again so ignore all the mean people in those four years. 
Also a strong work ethic is extremely important. I didn't find that one out until much later on in life. I wish I could just tell you these things while you are in the womb so you can skip over all the hard stuff but that hard stuff build character and I'm hoping so much that your mom and I help you become the best person you can be. 
You are gonna have a buttload of support and people fawning all over you, just wait. You have no idea. 
I'm so excited I keep looking at clothes and toys and all kinds of baby things for you. 
I really want you to have bright, fun clothes that aren't gender specific, I don't care if you are gay, straight, or whatever so I don't mind you being a boy and wearing pinks and purples or being a girl and wearing overalls. As long as you are happy that's my goal. 

I could ramble on forever, but I've got plenty of time for that so I'll be done for now.
Love you little Peapod.

Today's activties

Good evening,

I just wanted to let you know that I was grateful to hear your heartbeat today. I get to hear it next week too!!! Hopefully your dad will get to come as well. I know that it would really brighten up his week.

So today I picked out your bedding and sent it on over to your grandma Filenius. Your grandma Mckenna-Kenworthy wants to get together soon so we can pick out your bed :) I can't wait to find out what you are, I want to start getting things together for you, help me prepare for your arrival even though we still have a little less than six months until you get here.

That was just a small update that I wanted to let you know. I hope your dad comes on here tonight and says a little something to you :).

Love you!

Monday, November 1, 2010

Dear baby...

wk 15

We found out we were having you when you were 4 weeks in the process of growing. I was very apprehensive about the whole ordeal but I knew that you came into our lives for a reason and there was no way I would ever regret a thing. Here is a fairly quick recap on things we have gone through in the past 15 weeks.

You were brought into this world on a day of celebration. Every year on July 26th, I go out for a passed friends birthday. This past year it was just me and your dad that made it out. And well, here you are :)

I would say throughout the first trimester of carrying you, I was extremely sick and exhausted. We had or ups and downs too with you. In the 7th week, we thought we had lost you, and so did the doctor. I ended up having an emergency ultrasound and there you were, heart beating away at 126 beats per minute. Luckily, they didn't find anything wrong with you. About 4 weeks ago, we both got to see you and with a much stronger heart rate. It was funny, it was like you were waving to us the minute we could see you on the screen. Oh I couldn't stop laughing and I tried so hard not to cry. It was the day I fell in love with you and knew everything was going to be ok.

As far as craving come to play, I honestly haven't had anything weird yet. I just get strong cravings for specifics and the minute I have them I tend to be satisfied, though at times, it craving goes on for about a week. I noticed that whenever I eat chocolate I feel this fantastic flutter. Everybody tells me that it couldn't possibly be you, but I really think it is. My doctor (your doctor) told me that at week 12 some women can feel their babies move, and  I really feel that you were moving around.

Cravings that have lasted..
Chocolate Donuts
Tator Tots

I am sure that there will be much more added to that list. I have gained 6 pounds so far, which, once you get to know me better, scares me. But I know that it will be well worth the "weight".

I haven't experienced heartburn yet, but my oh my Migraines came back into my life. I have completely cut off caffeine, but its so hard! I still get headaches now and then, but I blame it on hormones and the fact that my breasts are huge and really putting a strain on my neck and back.

Let's see, we have your name picked out and we can't wait to find out which one we get to use. Your dad thinks it will be Lucy but I have a feeling that it will be Liam. Either way your name will start with an L.

You have a cat. She is realizing that you are in our lives and in my belly. She has really started to be overprotective of your mom and she takes it out on your dad. But no worries, she is going to love you, I promise!

Alright. I am going to head out now, but we will see you soon enough.

Love, Mama


This is a blog that Austin and I will are going to start updating my progress and the baby's progress throughout the pregnancy and possibly further. I feel bad because I haven't gotten one of those books that I can write in about how every week on how things are going and how the little tyke is doing. So, instead, since Austin and I blog anyways and I already have two other blogs, why not let everybody see how things are going.

I will be making the first big post in a little while, I just don't have the time to do it right now :)

See you soon!